The End of a Journey

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Well, it’s done. I finished the book and despite my penchant for tweaking and adding one more thing, my daughter is telling me it is complete, to let it go. I’ll Meet You at the Base of the Mountain is my ten year journey, a journey that began with a mother’s grief after the death of my 21-year-old daughter Kristi in a car accident in 2003 and eventually led me to new life.

Kristi’s death sent me on a search for answers. Why did this happen to us? Is she ok? Where does one go when they die? Can I communicate with her? It led me on an amazing journey, one I could never have imagined, to places beyond my comprehension and experiences out of this world.

There is life after death. Do I have proof? Maybe not the tangible kind those with an analytical mind might require. But all that I have experienced over the past ten years leaves no doubt in my mind that life does go on, that we are always connected to not only our loved ones but the divine energy of God and can tap into it ourselves whenever we are ready. I know that death is not the end, merely the conclusion of one tiny scene in a never ending performance called life.

When someone you love dies, it is as if you have been thrown into an abyss so deep and dark the sun cannot reach you. How does one even begin to pull oneself out of such deep despair? No footholds, nothing to grab onto. You are lost. You ask yourself, do I even want to? Perhaps I will stay in this place of darkness forever.

The interesting thing is life won’t let you stay there. You do not belong in the darkness, and so, day by day, week by week, months and then years, you find your way back. Only the world looks different now, because you are different, better maybe. The fabric of your life is richer, fuller, and more vibrant. You begin to learn who you are and find a new purpose, one that never would have shown itself if you had not experienced what you had. A purpose that is so much larger and grander than anything you could have imagined.

I’ll Meet You at the Base of the Mountain is my story. At times it is raw with emotion and perhaps you can relate. I hope you will also appreciate the growth that comes with acceptance and feel my wonder at all that unfolds. We all have a story; I am finally ready to share mine.

I’ll Meet You at the Base of the Mountain will be available in print mid to late October, 2013. For more information www.BellaSpark.com.

Blessings on your journey,

Donna

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