Full Circle

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I have come full circle. Twelve years ago, after the death of my daughter Kristi, I began a journey, one born out of desperation and a need for answers, an attempt to answer the age old question of why. Why my child? Why me? What’s the meaning of life? You know how it goes.

My life revolved around my desire to understand. It changed me, who I was, what I wanted. My seeking led me to quit my job, to start a business and to purchase a magazine. BellaSpark Productions was born to contain these new experiences – our mission to be a catalyst: to stimulate, inspire and embolden individuals and communities in their growing spiritual awareness by providing access to consciousness raising ideas, people and information. Bella means Beautiful and Spark is for the Divine Spark in all of us.

I have indeed experienced that beautiful spark. I have learned, explored and reached a better understanding of the world, growing and evolving in a way I could never have fathomed. I am not the woman I was before my daughter died, nor the woman I was just a couple years ago. So here I am full circle – back where I started some 12 years ago – no longer the seeker. Am I done? No, for as ever evolving souls we are never done, but for now I am complete.

I recognize that I am finished with this leg of my journey, this chapter in the book of life called Donna. Spirit is calling me in a new direction, a new chapter is waiting to be written. It is with both sadness and a sense of fulfillment that I share with you that Bob and I are ready to move on from BellaSpark Magazine. We have decided to sell this publication that has shaped and inspired not only us, but hopefully you who have shared our journey with us. I send this out to you our readers and to the Universe with the desire that if the magazine still has more to offer the world a buyer will come forth. Someone with new energy and a wish to bring a new light to the world. If you are that light, that beautiful spark, please don’t hesitate to contact us.

It has been an amazing journey and we are truly grateful for all who have supported us over the years. Change is the only constant and we have chosen to embrace it. What does the future hold? We’re not sure, but whatever it is, it will be magnificent.

Donna

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