Living Fearwards

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by Richard Moss

Fear is a sensation that we name according to the situation. If you are standing at the rim of the Grand Canyon, you speak of fear of heights: acrophobia. If you are in a crowded place the word is agoraphobia (literally, “fear of the marketplace”). There are a thousand names for fear, but only one sensation, which of course can vary in intensity. Throughout evolution, fear has been our teacher of survival. It alerted us to danger and told us to be prepared. This is the healthy aspect of fear. But today, in the developed world, we have relatively few external threats. Our greatest threats come from within us, from what we tell ourselves about others or our situation, which can generate anxiety, insecurity, hate, or even terror. Our minds create fears by believing stories such as, I'll be all alone in my old age, or I won’t have enough money. Limitless stories can arouse fear in us.

As long as we avoid any threatening or distressing feeling, fear unconsciously remains the god ruling our psychic life. Real transformation begins when you are able to bow before fear and acknowledge its power, but declare that it is no longer your god. At that moment you become the disciple of a new god, Awareness. Immediately, what awareness asks of you is to learn, to the best of your ability, to remain present and open even when there is fear.

The sensation of fear is difficult to be with and when you cannot create a big space for it, the immediate tendency is to become self-involved. You contract in upon yourself, your head starts spinning more thoughts; your mind begins to wonder How do I regain control? How do I get away from this feeling? All that matters to you is your self-interest; you stop being caring to others and their needs. Psychologically, the combination of fear and self-interest is possibly the greatest threat facing humanity today. It poisons relationships within marriages, families, business, politics and international affairs.

But there is no such thing as being safe. Life is and will always be full of uncertainty. Nothing from the outside — no laws, no high tech inventions, no amount of guns, no leader — can make you truly safe. Only you can do that inside yourself. The terrible irony is that when fear intensifies self-interest to unhealthy levels this weakens healthy connections between people, which only leads to a sense of separation and even more fear.

As soon as fear closes you down, you have reached the limit of your ability to love and grow. For example, as you risk building a new business, it could be the fear of failure or even of success that might slow or even sabotage you. If you are in a relationship, the fear of abandonment, or being a betrayer, or just a sense of insecurity could make you pull back.

To “live fearwards” — or sometimes I say “move fearwards” — means that you let fear become your teacher. You open yourself to the sensation of fear. You let yourself become vulnerable. You stop blaming others. You stop seeing threats and start seeing opportunities to awaken to greater consciousness.

If we lived in a Harry Potter Universe, the wizard would wave her wand and say the incantation: “Fearwards!” Suddenly everyone on Earth has three times the capacity to be with fear and not become self-involved and self-protective. They would have three times the ability to be vulnerable and not close their hearts. Instantly, there is a fraction as much greed and distrust, a fraction of the power struggles and conflicts. Instantly, there is three times more openness, three times more capacity for intimacy, three times more fairness, acceptance, and tolerance, and three times more love. The whole world changes in an instant and it is all tied to how we handle fear in ourselves.

But let’s not wait for magic. Let’s learn to dance with fear.

When you feel fearful, ask yourself, What specifically am I telling myself that is creating this fear? If your thoughts are negative judgments, take five deep slow breaths and bring all your attention back to the present moment. Be present for every perception and every sensation. Repeat this over and over until the fullness of the present moment has filled your senses completely. As soon as your attention moves into the Now, all thoughts and mind-made images will recede and the fearfulness will fade away. Then, if examining your stories suggest that there is an action you can take to properly address what must be done, commit yourself to act immediately.

If the threatening feeling seems to be present without any thoughts to provoke it, then be very alert not to let the fearful feeling cause you to think stories like My life is not working, or Something is wrong with me. All thoughts born of fear either create more fear or they create imaginary hope, which is another kind of delusion. Instead, keep your full attention in the present and let yourself be spontaneously creative as you breathe into the fearfulness. You can make sounds, or even dance a silly jig. This lays down new associations and new neural pathways in the brain that short-circuit the conditioned responses to fear.

Keep breathing into the feeling and try not to label it with names like “unsafe” or “terrified.” No matter how familiar the feeling may seem, pretend that you have never felt it before. The act of naming separates and puts you in the past and in your ego. Transmuting fear requires becoming one with it in the Now. You must also let go of the future: Breathing into fear and dancing with it is not about getting rid of fear or gaining any desired outcome. It is about an unconditional relationship with fear so that fear becomes a doorway instead of a wall.

You can even use the energy of fear with what I call the Practice of Gratitude. Instead of dwelling on fearful mental images and thoughts, say Thank You for every present-moment perception: the light you see, the colors, all the sounds, smells and any sensation. Say Thank You even for the feeling of fear itself. Keep expressing gratitude for everything that you are aware of or for anything that comes into your mind and soon the fearful sensation will transform.

Living fearwards is something anyone can do, as soon as we decide we would rather live in a loving world. Fear will never go away completely, but your capacity to be with it will grow, and steadily you will become a champion of openness and love.

Richard Moss, the Maestro of “Deep Work,” a physician-turned-master healer and the bestselling author of Inside-Out Healing and The Mandala of Being, has been guiding people on profound journeys of self-discovery for 37 years. Richard will be leading a 4-day “Deep Work” Intensive in Golden, Colorado, January 23-26.